I wanted to share some thoughts that have recently accumulated with a dream.
So last week I had this dream, where in the dream I was pregnant. I was pretty far along and my belly was rather big. And throughout the dream, there was this sense that I wasn’t enough, that I couldn’t give birth, that my body wasn’t able to support what was about to happen. And the whole FEAR, and all these emotions stemmed from the idea that my skin was too thin. I know right, sounds ridiculous!! And so this manifested in the dream, by everytime the baby moved, you could see every outline of the baby. You could see the baby’s bones, what position she was in, how she kicked, and moved her face. And this wasn’t a cute scene like, ‘Oh, look at the baby.’ It was fearful and powerless that I couldn’t be what my baby needed. That the skin on my belly wasn’t good enough to carry her.
Well I woke up in a sweat, and that whole morning, I was just trying to shake it off. When later I was driving to the clinic, and it was like everything hit me as to what the dream meant. Pulling from a past experience that I had forgotten about, that was so far down in me, I didn’t even realize.
As women, we do this right? We collect all the things that people have ever said to us, good and bad. But especially for the bad or negative things, we stuff them so far down inside of us, that sometimes we even forget they are there. So back to my experience, I had a doctor along time ago, tell me that my skin was too thin. That it didn’t have good elasticity, and that I would have bad circulation problems and that because my skin was so thin, that my health might be effected, ect. So ridiculous!!! And as a woman, for some reason that took my power away. And maybe in the moment, I brushed it off, and was like, whatever, I don’t really care about your opinion about my skin. But obviously, it stuck. Because ten years later, subcousiously I am dreaming about fear, and that opinion worked its way up the pipeline.
So in saying all this, I was reminded of how we as women, store negative things, that will resurface at some point. And BIRTH, is one of those times that our vulnerability is extremely heightened. And the chances of things coming back up the pipeline are real. And when things come back up, after maybe being stuffed down there for years, we let those things TAKE our POWER. We let something as stupid as a doctor telling me I have thin skin, make me feel small.
So I’m proposing that we dig it all up. We pull if we have to, everything that anybody has ever said about us that would take power from us. Anything that anybody has said about our bodies, our minds, our spirits, that takes the light, we’re gonna pull it up and GET IT OUT!! All the shadows that have been stored deep down, we will no longer let it take our power. I want every woman to be able to walk into Birth fearless and free. Conscious only of the strength she has to cross over and bring her baby to this side. And in order to do this, we got to start digging, and pulling out every small thing that dims our light.
I hope this resonates with your hearts, and encourages you to do the work, so that we can be stronger and more powerful. My love for you all is so deep and together we can do this! We can TAKE BACK our POWER!!!!